Pink Mouse Pub

where even the tiniest voice can pinch a nerve.

Rau, Christina M.

The Story Of Rosaline
 
Whatever happened to fair Rosaline?
A would-be lover became distracted
by a different pilgrim’s hands
at a masquerade ball under the guise of love.
Once the object of a supposed tyrannous,
rough affection, the named cause of one
heart’s chaos, Rosaline played coy
as was her duty as a porcelain maiden,
Scoffing glances and ignoring winks
though she did hear a young  suitor’s heart
beating furiously for her.
True, she did have Dian’s wit,
But also true that Cupid’s arrow
had pierced her right through, too.
Should have been at that fair assembly
of masks and magic where they could have met.
Dressed in wings of silk and a mask of gold,
in flowing gown and pearl-buttoned corset,
Green eyes jewels, hair a cascade of ebony rings,
lips a simple pink rose and hands dainty,
Rosaline danced from corner to corner,
weaved between jokers and kings,
Curtsied to clowns and bowed to senators,
all in search of he who surely sought her.
When the last mask left and final confetti fell,
Rosaline found only herself on the grand stairs,
Newly cast as an old desire
in a never-lover's death-bed.
And while two new lovers frolicked in the night,
hiding behind hill, tree, and wall,
Fair Rosaline, forlorn, tore off her wings and corset.
And while two new lovers tore away from each other,
Fair Rosaline, forlorn, fell into a teary pillow.
And while an old family feud thickened, deepened,
turned to jealous murder and strife,
Fair Rosaline, forlorn, sank into soft satin comfort.
Fortune continued to make fools of not just
the young lover, but of everyone the young one
touched. The friar turned false to his religious
oaths, abetted the secretive plan to elope.
Poison permeated and possessed blood and air
while Rosaline, so fair, began to reclaim
her body and heart, seeing self-worth,
cleaning old wounds from a now broken shaft.
And while two star crossed lovers
lay dead upon one another,
Fair Rosaline, reborn, walked out of
her chamber, into a new morn.
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The Chocolate Monkey Incident (About a Guy I Did Not Date)
 
I slid across the bench seat of the cab back to her car
Across town from where we’d walked when we thought
It was closer and warmer, right after he kissed me quickly
Goodbye with lips separated but mouths still closed
As if we had been kissing goodbye for at least two years
Of being a couple together,
After he had walked us back from the friend’s one bedroom
After we had said it was time to go right after we had touched
In the friend’s kitchen, lips first, mouths open
Hands on backs of heads, fingers under hats tipped back,
Sweaters heating up under breasts and armpits, nostrils
Flared with heavy wet breath, elbows hitting chairs,
Shins hitting each other in a stumble against walls,
Back pressed to the table top, then his pressed against
A broken refrigerator door,
After I had thrown out my gum
Right after it had lost flavor and grew hard
After drinking the glass of tap water that hinted at chlorine,
Sodium, mercury, and ether,
After drinking two glasses of sweet lime liquid laced with cherries,
After we had heard him play jazz, play blues, play the song
About the woman with a ticket on a train but when he sang it
It sounded like the woman had a chicken
And wasn’t sure what to do with it
After he had picked up his guitar
After he had jittered around behind me
Right after I had touched his stomach
After we had walked over to greet his friends
After having seen him up close for the first time
Instead of across a hill or room
After he had kissed my cheek to say hello
As if we’ve really known each other after all these years.
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Last Day of Vacation
 
The sun rises
In a Dominican minute
Staining the sky scarlet to
Lavendar-blue inch by
Inch behind a palm tree
Jealous green
That moves left to right
Almost stopped upright.
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Get
--“If you don’t expect too much from me, you might not be let down.” Gin Blossoms  “Hey Jealousy
 
What more could a girl
ask for? What more
could a rock star give?
A bus, a ride, a bottle, a ball,
            a shot, a bullet, a breath,
                        a lyric, a rhythm,
                                    a story to misremember
                                    years later, no matter
                                    the outcome.
Yet the details do matter,
to her.
It’s all in the storytelling:
not just the bus,
            but the tire changes and fuel,
not just the lyric
            but the yellow pad where they were first
            scribbled and scratched out.
Really, all she wants is
            to be filled by his stage presence,
            her hands clasped beneath her chin
            against her neck, eyes closed,
            mouthing the words back,
            and the split second he catches her doing it.
Sometimes, though,
he forgets to look.